I’m lost in a maze I can’t seem to escape
tired of all the bullshit tired of all the games
stressed out and exhausted from all the pain
slowly burnin’ out countin’ down the days
thinkin’ to myself why try to change
as I mix another hit to inject into my veins
It only helps for the moment I can’t even control it
who the fuck am I someone please tell me
My soul has been stolen
by the addict inside me
The sands of time are runnin’ out
I’m lost who’s gonna find me
Creator I need your help from myself
this I ask of you kindly
I just want what’s good in life
and leave all this chaos behind me
These pills have me by the balls
to the point I’m sick and crying
askin’ god why me the real me is hiding
My demons walk beside me
I could tell you that I wanna quit
but can’t so I guess I’m lying
there’s a war I’m tired of fighting
I can’t win and now I know
I need all the help that I can get
I can’t do this on my own
right now I’m so alone nowhere to call home
I never thought this world could be so fuckin’ cold
Don’t trust anybody is something I was told
I should have listened to what was was said
It’s too late to turn back
I used to love hustlin’ on the streets
but now I feel trapped
that’s the here and the now
So hear my story it’s very real
as a matter of fact
this is my hell my life and that’s that
So make no mistake these streets ain’t no place
they’ll chew you up and spit you out within a matter of days
there’s no room for the weak you gotta stand on your own feet
I work hard for my keep to get high and eat
there’s not a goddamn thing in this world that comes free to get what you need
it’s a dog eat dog life 24 hour a day job this is the school of hard knocks
I’m a full fledged addict hello my name is John
a junkie to the max is the way that I walk
every minute of every day this shit is nonstop.
